The Beginning and The End!!!

Well good thing today, I got my lovely brand new laptop. Awesome.. Damn happy with it.. Its so sexy, sleek, elegant and of course in black.. so yeah.. Well it can do wonders.. Or at least i think it can as I have been stuck with a lovely laptop of the same line different series for the past 3 years.. no offense and misconception.. My old laptop was amazing too.. I loved it so much.. Just one sad thing it cant be used anymore.. Well so i upgraded but stuck to the same line.. as its evidently awesome.. so yeah..
And back to the real part. Today is officially my last full day in Malaysia. A lot of mixed feelings, rush of emotions and so on. Well i guess some say I have to go, it's the right decision, it's good for u, a great experience and so on.. Well right or wrong I have to go there.. Well hope those people are right. But even if they were does it outweigh the good here? It has been an amazing journey here. More than amazing. If u lived your life in my shoes, you would understand. There were hard times, sad times but then the good, happy and awesome times were way more significant than the others.. Those are the time and memories we should live on instead of regretting and thinking why did i do that, what else could i have done, I shouldn't have and so on..
This is something i wrote once to cheer a friend up,

Live on the small things that put a sparkle in your life,
Live life as it comes one moment at a time,
Don't notice the hiccups that come along,
Ignore them for they are only temporary.
"Saab"

So well live on that, and I promise you life will be Good.

Well at the same times it's not easy to let the bad times go, but we have to try. Never give up hope. Well on a last note. This is the end and the beginning of chapters of my life.




I m sorry that I have to leave like this. Well it maybe good for you and me at the same time. Thank you for everything you have done for me and so on. So well have fun and Tc..





Have a great day and life ahead of you!!! TC.

GOODBYE!!!

Then there were FOUR!!!

Well yesterday was the most difficult day in my life. I have been through hectic and depressing days.. But somehow yesterday, when there were no deadlines, no disappointments, no heartbreaks and so on, I really felt damn sad and torn as it was the last day I spent with my closest friends as I left for Ipoh the very next day (Today). I m glad that i could spend an entire day with them.. living of lovely memories, good times, funny times, and all.. Some may think there could or should have been a better sending off. But in my mind, that was the perfect one i could imagine. All my friends together, joking and laughing, disturbing certain ppl i won't mention ("Main Member"). HAHA.. Well I truly enjoyed my last day in KL the Malaysian way, Our way, Doing absolutely nothing significant, sitting at a mamak drinking and talking.. It was perfect in my eyes, amazing memories were brought back, tons of laughter and many more.
However, everything good has to come to an end, and no exception for this. Well we at least spent the whole day and till morning 6 together at a playground. Imagine a bunch of 20 year old's playing at a playground at 5 in the morning? HaHa.. Well it was a good time.. Then it came to the end and well the hardest part of all.. I will truly miss u guys!
Boy it was such a difficult thing to withstand. Well but one day we all have to wake up and face reality, we may be able to avoid reality, but we can't avoid the consequences of avoiding reality. Hence, we just sometimes say goodbye and go on! Well as difficult as it is. It has to be done.

I will truly miss u my dear friend! Life without you is definitely not going to be the same! I just hope I can survive this future to come! And hope you do to!
I m sorry I m leaving when there is no one else there! I wish i could turn things back, but you and I both know we can't. So lets move one and hope things go in the right direction.
I hope you do come over!!! and be there with me to help embrace and take on the future together!

Well I don't know how many people's heart I have touched, or how many people's heart I have broken. Hopefully more of the first than the later. But yeah I m sorry to those who I have hurt and to those I m going to hurt when I leave! I m truly sorry!!

TWO WEEKS

Well apparently its just short of TWO weeks.. Well when they said time flies by when u want it to go slow, boy they weren't kidding. I have no idea what to do anymore. The more you try to hold onto something, the more it slips away from you very hand. I guess it's nothing but a futile attempt. We all have to move on and accept the fact. Haha.

Change is not the easiest thing to deal with. It's very difficult but sadly it's necessary in order to pursue life and learn as we go. It's good to be comfortable but never be complacent, because if you were to reach that stage, we are just going to be stuck in one place and limit of learning capabilities and resources. Go out, explore, find new things, meet new people, fall in love, whatever it might be, do something with your life and don't waste a single second of god's gift to you!

A simple quote by Ivy Baker Priest states,"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning."Well So to me, what i can take away from it is, don't give up hope, go ahead and do what you really want to. If you were to reach a place or point which seems to be the end, think again, look at it from a different perspective. That very point may be the start of something new, great brilliance in fact. I Ching also said, "Before the beginning of great brilliance there must be disaster". So well go ahead, never give up and when you reach the end, go some more. Do not stop. Do not give up! Only then will you not regret anything in life.

Another phrase I got from a the movie " Public Enemy" caught my attention. Johnny Depp said,"Listen to me doll. They are only looking at where people come from, but the only important thing is where somebody is going." So what you should ask yourself is not where you came from, but where are you headed? In my opinion it should be "Anywhere I Want."

I noticed that everything I have posted so far has got to do with my departure, well but that is all that's on my mind at the moment. So yeah. Well and being me loving quotes, I tried to read quotes of farewell, goodbyes, departing and so on seeing if it could make me feel any better. Well don't know how well it worked out but it was pretty soothing to the heart.Here are some,

"Nothing makes the world feel more spacious as to have friends at a distance;they make latitudes and longitudes." Henry David Thoreau.

" Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I'll miss you, until we meet again."

"Only in the agony of parting do we look into the depths of love" George Elliot.

"Farewell. God knows when we shall meet again." William Shakespere.

"Man's feelings are always the purest and most glowing in the hour of meeting and of farewell." Jean Paul Ritcher.

"We only part to meet again" John Gay

"A man never knows how to say goodbye; a woman never knows when to say it." Helen Rowland

"A goodbye isn't painful, unless you're never going to say hello again."

And well my favourite,
"Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?"

Well these are just a few out of the many I read. So yeah. Another phrase to cheer the situation up,

"Winston Churchill drank after a victory because he deserved it and after a defeat cause he needed it"

In conclusion I feel he sending us a message, DRINK!!! Haha

Closer and closer!!!

Well heard of the phrase,
"Time and tide wait for no man"?
Guess what time is catching up to me. I have a million things I want to do, a million people I want to meet.. It's seriously the hardest thing to say goodbye to friends that you have spent the last couple of years with, seeing them almost everyday if not at College/University, just hanging out, watching a movie and doing absolutely nothing together. All those fun times, a lot of quarrels, jokes, laughter and mishaps. Life has been wonderful to me, God has been to be more precise. I have had the time of my life here with all of you and thinking of leaving right now? Boy oh boy its the worst thing to be on my mind at the moment!

Yesterday was the day that marked the beginning of the last month I am here at home! After that I am off indefinitely, well I have not decided when I will be back, if I were to come back that is?

One thing about me is that I don't really plan very far ahead. I have not always been like this, I used to be very well organised and move and do things according to how I planned it. However things happened, I changed and well this is how I am now. Sometimes it favors me, sometimes not! It's a chance I have to take, and well personally I enjoy life better this way. There is a lot less to worry about, a lot less on your mind , hence resulting in less stress and distractions. Allowing me to be more effective and efficient to do whatever I set out to do!

Okay back to the real deal now, the actual issue at hand, I don't think I am ready to leave as of yet. I have been too attached here and well it's so difficult to just admit the fact and well wholeheartedly say,
GOODBYE!!!

Well I will truly miss this place, and well I hope you know I have my reasons for leaving. Reasons I myself can't comprehend, and well not to boast but I am pretty good and fast at comprehending things. I just don't know whether its a mistake or a the right decision as of now. However, I have made my decision and well I will stick to it no matter what. Sooner or later I will find out the result to my decision when the time comes. Till then I will just have to ponder and wait till time tells it's tale!




I would like to thank you for being there with me all this while,cheering me up, honesty and putting up with my difficult and peculiar ways.
And to you for putting a smile on my face whenever I need it!




On a last note I leave you with these quote,

Be bold, be confident, be alive. A gallery of possibilities awaits you when you make change my friend. Bob Bone

Change is part of every life. Resisting it is often futile as it is frustrating.

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it's a matter of choice: It is not a thing to be waited for it is to be achieved. William Jennings Bryan

Well hope these quotes are right and well all is good!
Have fun!!!

Your Smile!

Sitting here on this beach,

Watch the rain play on the ocean top,

Serenading my ears with such graceful music,

Leaves my heart and soul at peace,

Just like the smile on your face,

Puts a smile on mine,

Melting my heart in the process,

Keeping me warm inside despite the cold times,

Trying to picture you through a looking glass,

All I can see is your eyes,

Staring back at them,

And I can see the world,

You are the universe to me,

I am here trying to justify the reasons,

As to why god is peeking through the blinds,

When I fail to see it’s you on the other side,

Just like a star across the sky,

Just like an angel in my heart,

You are there for me,

To brighten and protect my heart,

Girl you take my breath away,

You make me helpless,

My heart belongs to you,

When you smile!

I will never find someone like you

Because I love the way,

You make me feel when I am with you,

Helpless with your smile!

Until another day brings the magic,

Where we can sing about you and I both,

What you and I both loved,

What you and I spoke about,

I will always remember your smile!

Saab

Just something I wrote a while back about a person that puts a smile on my face. Evidently.

Thoughts!!!

Well I m back here, a place I call home. Along with it, a lot of time to think about things, some I like and some not so much. Thoughts of the future, near and afar scares me. Well if you don't already know me, this is not who I am. I never like thinking of the past and the future. Just love living in the moment. Well but due to a lot of free time u can't help but to wonder. So yeah. Certain decisions made lately, i don't know if it's for the right reasons or not, will it make me happy, the right thing to do and will it be the best for everyone else. A sudden frame flashed through my thoughts about the future and well I came up with this scary part of my life next year.

I WOULDN'T BE HERE!!!

Well i can't imagine my life not here, my friends all left behind, my family and YOU!!! Well it's a long way and a decision made. I have to stick with it and go on. No matter how much it means I have to give up, people that I have to leave behind. I can't imagine not talking to you for a day, not being here on your 21st birthday! I dunno why but that's one of the thoughts that went through my head. A bit on the random note but yeah. You are the first person i think off when anything happens and the first person i wanna tell and share things with. I don't know why but yeah its true. Thanks for being my best friend. Will miss you! Well but for the moment I guess I will just have to live with what I have for now, live in the moment as I enjoy doing and have fun. Embrace every second i got left here and move on once time comes. Till then wish me the best of luck and may we all have fun.
And well treasure every second u get!

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